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DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 6   ……………………………………………………………………………………  THE FRONT END ……………………………………………………………………………………  FEBRUARY Niall visited me a few weeks after my surgery, knowing full well that I was capable of no more than consuming dinner and codeine, limping around my apartment … Continue reading →

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 5   ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Dream on. ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Two days later, I’m thawed out on drugs, restless from too much sleep and too little movement, looking for a getaway vehicle to take me away to the morphine peach … Continue reading →

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 4 ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Civilized conversations about bodily misfortunes. ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Mom: You just have to tell me what button to press. Me: The icon that looks exactly like a camera. Do you remember what cameras used to look … Continue reading →

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 3 ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… Forgive me father for I have sinned. ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… I’ve been waiting for a guide to take me by the hand Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man? New sensations … Continue reading →

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 2 …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Pre-Surgical Sexing …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Sex trolling commenced as I was composing the Rock Bottom post admitting that I couldn’t go additional months without sex. Mostly exploring my options, like when you open your eyes to … Continue reading →

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 1 But when we wake It’s all been erased And so it seems Only in dreams —Weezer, Only in Dreams Every six months or so I dream about masturbating. From the first-person perspect. Oh gosh, how … Continue reading →