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Dream Big, Baby: Part 6

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 6   ……………………………………………………………………………………  THE FRONT END ……………………………………………………………………………………  FEBRUARY Niall visited me a few weeks after my surgery, knowing full well that I was capable of no more than consuming dinner and codeine, limping around my apartment … Continue reading

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Dream Big, Baby: Part 5

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 5   ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Dream on. ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Two days later, I’m thawed out on drugs, restless from too much sleep and too little movement, looking for a getaway vehicle to take me away to the morphine peach … Continue reading

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Dream Big, Baby: Part 4

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 4 ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Civilized conversations about bodily misfortunes. ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Mom: You just have to tell me what button to press. Me: The icon that looks exactly like a camera. Do you remember what cameras used to look … Continue reading

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Dream Big, Baby: Part 3

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 3 ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… Forgive me father for I have sinned. ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… I’ve been waiting for a guide to take me by the hand Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man? New sensations … Continue reading

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Dream Big, Baby: Part 2

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 2 …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Pre-Surgical Sexing …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………. Sex trolling commenced as I was composing the Rock Bottom post admitting that I couldn’t go additional months without sex. Mostly exploring my options, like when you open your eyes to … Continue reading

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Dream Big, Baby: Part 1

DREAM BIG, BABY: PART 1 But when we wake It’s all been erased And so it seems Only in dreams —Weezer, Only in Dreams Every six months or so I dream about masturbating. From the first-person perspect. Oh gosh, how … Continue reading

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The 13th Step: Rock Bottom

THE 13th STEP: ROCK BOTTOM Oh, hai, thanks for stopping by. Guys, I have a problem. I’ve been through so many guys, yet had sooo little sex. It’s demoralizing. I think my count at this juncture in the space-time continuum … Continue reading

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Every Guy’s Nightmare: Rape Rape

EVERY GUY’S NIGHTMARE: RAPE RAPE   THE INCIDENT Summer 2004. I tell him he can sleep over if it gets late. We’re old friends from high school. I haven’t seen him in a few years. He lives in the Bronx … Continue reading

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Every Guy’s Nightmare: Intro

EVERY GUY’S NIGHTMARE: INTRO December 4th, 2014 It’s every guy’s nightmare: learning that sex meant something different to a woman than it meant to him. Feeling that he had a nice, mutual, consensual, pleasurable experience that somewhere along the line … Continue reading

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The 13th Step: Descent

THE THIRTEENTH STEP: DESCENT   I stay out too late Got nothing in my brain That’s what people say That’s what people say I go on too many dates But I can’t make them stay At least that’s what people … Continue reading

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